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haha..so depressed today. air21 has problems with their employees, the bad thing is that my reputation as an ebayer depends mostly on them. now the 18 pt feedback score I've tried so hard to achieve will have to suffer coz of something I didn't do. pinagbibintangan pa ko ngaun ng buyer na sinungaling. well..can't blame her. of course, the buyer would definitely believe one whole international shipping company instead of the seller. ganun lang talaga..
yep, i know, this shouldn't be a big deal. pero kasi ebay has been my only source of comfort these past few hell months, without it I could've gone back to my old, terribly depressed, most useless self. i'd hate to admit it but i have no regular people I hang out with in ateneo..that's why I miss certain friends in high school so badly. and thats why I gave most of my energy to this ebay thing. coz yup, i'm alone, and yup, its because i chose to be alone. because i never seem to fit in anywhere i go.
and stupid me thought nothing could go wrong with ebay, its just regular buying and selling. that i can safely put my hopes in it coz nothing's bad about selling. well, i just never thought this could happen, never thought i could be let down by people in air21 whom i have already built a relationship with. what's more stupid is that i can't do anything coz i don't want to...i don't want to ruin friendships. so fine, lets just leave it at this.
i've decided to put all things on sale in ebay and close my seller's account once and for all. after all, this event might have been God's way of saying, "reisa, tama na yang addiction mo na yan. come back." haha. yeah...most probably.
anyways, i'll definitely end all sales by monday next week. i'm on an underload na so there's no excuse for me to not give my best in math and chem. I'll have to prepare myself for another roller coaster ride of crying and running and being tense for exams, all of which i tried to escape by not committing myself to my studies. the only thing I'll be doing for now with my ebay account would be buying christmas gifts and things on bargain. tas tama na. time for me to get myself a life out of ebay.
haay...too bad i can't cry this out. corny na pag iniyakan ko pa to no. haha.
yep, i know, this shouldn't be a big deal. pero kasi ebay has been my only source of comfort these past few hell months, without it I could've gone back to my old, terribly depressed, most useless self. i'd hate to admit it but i have no regular people I hang out with in ateneo..that's why I miss certain friends in high school so badly. and thats why I gave most of my energy to this ebay thing. coz yup, i'm alone, and yup, its because i chose to be alone. because i never seem to fit in anywhere i go.
and stupid me thought nothing could go wrong with ebay, its just regular buying and selling. that i can safely put my hopes in it coz nothing's bad about selling. well, i just never thought this could happen, never thought i could be let down by people in air21 whom i have already built a relationship with. what's more stupid is that i can't do anything coz i don't want to...i don't want to ruin friendships. so fine, lets just leave it at this.
i've decided to put all things on sale in ebay and close my seller's account once and for all. after all, this event might have been God's way of saying, "reisa, tama na yang addiction mo na yan. come back." haha. yeah...most probably.
anyways, i'll definitely end all sales by monday next week. i'm on an underload na so there's no excuse for me to not give my best in math and chem. I'll have to prepare myself for another roller coaster ride of crying and running and being tense for exams, all of which i tried to escape by not committing myself to my studies. the only thing I'll be doing for now with my ebay account would be buying christmas gifts and things on bargain. tas tama na. time for me to get myself a life out of ebay.
haay...too bad i can't cry this out. corny na pag iniyakan ko pa to no. haha.
living backwards, 6:22 PM
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